| | Hmmm. So I've been really busy lately, even though I don't really have that many commitments, but I guess trying to fit a job into my schedule has proved to be harder than I originally thought.
I'm kinda mad, b/c Dell has once again disappointed me. My "adaptor" or charger for my computer is basically defunct. It's frayed and I've been having a really hard time keeping my computer charged. Not to mention that this couldn't have happened at a WORSE time, since I have 3 final essays due in less than 2 weeks.... and I don't wanna spend 70 more dollars on another cord when this computer sucks anyways. Apparently this happens to alot of Dells though. Psh.
But school does end in a few weeks, im kind of excited about that. Kind of. Life is too complicated. I wish I could just be like when i was in grade school and was like "yay! Summer!"
Something weird did happen to me today though. Well- I thought something weird today. I was with a couple of girls, and its important that i mention that they were white, So we were outside, and we saw a bunch of black frats and sororities walking....or strolling or whatever I don't know enough about greek culture to say...But today is "Tradition Day" and I'm not so sure what that's about either, but it has something to do with the national pan-hellenic council (black frat n sororities) and they stroll n stuff on campus. I dunno its an event. So I guess they were getting ready for that, and alot of them are back in the uniforms they wore while pledging even though they've crossed. And so they were "walking" (In the way they're supposed to while they're pledging) and the girls I'm with are basically making fun of them, but its not just making fun of them, its making fun of the whole thing, the whole organizations n stuff. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a Greek lover or whatever, I don't really even know that many people who are in Greeks, but at the same time I respect it. I respect the fact that these people want to become part of something bigger than them, I respect the fact that I may not understand it or know anything about it. And also, It has a deep history within the African American community, so because of that I "respect" it. But these girls were so irritating, and it made me mad because I was with people who could be so ignorant.
For so long I've tried to be the type of person who identify themselves as "Black" or "Oreo" or whatever, because I don't want certain stigma's put on me. I try to have friends in all types of ethnic groups, because I think its important to celebrate diversity, but when stuff like this happens, I feel myself getting kind of disgusted. I dunno, maybe its because I'm taking all these African American theory classes, or I'm getting hyper sensitive, or maybe I'm just a little more mature...but I'm starting to see stuff, especially in the white community- that i really don't like. And it bothers me even more because its not just with random people, it's with people who are supposed to be my "friends," and I feel like I'm doing a huge disservice not only to black people but to myself if I just stand there and allow them to talk like that, especially if I don't agree with it. What kind of person am I if I just step back and allow that kind of stuff to happen.
It's funny too because I had realized last year that most of my friends were black, so tried to make more white friends, but I am definitely turned off right now. And its not right to generalize...but still, I can't help but feel a little wary. But on the other hand, it could just be that most of the white people I meet are all tactless hicks. Not that the black community is any better either, b/c they have their own share of problems that I definitely have issue with (and that would be too much for this entry) but at the same time, I guess I'm just so upset because I'm seeing things that I didn't see before. I don't know.
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